With Quiet Confidence

Everyday I feel the dream of me moving on to a great grad school gets stronger and stronger, even when the things in normal life may get worse and worse. And I was sitting and worrying and getting stressed out when the only thing I need to do is let GOD take control.

I am going to be honest when I say that it is very hard for me to keep God in control because so many thoughts go through my head and the process of becoming a great horn play can be rather torturous at times. On the bright side, it is only January. That leaves me all of February to get ready for the Brevard audition submission. After that, my main goal is getting my tongue where it needs to be on these high notes and continuing to develop my tone. I am currently working out of the following etude books: Reynolds for technical, Concone for lyricism, Rochut for low range support and bass clef note recognition. I do the Kreihbel Games, the Tuckwell slurs, and Abagail Pack's warmup in some shape or form everyday.

For my lesson tomorrow, I really don't know what I plan on playing...arg...I have been practicing plenty of different things, but no one certain thing. Well I guess I have been doing this one Rochut everyday, but besides that I have only been working consistently on the Gliere 3rd movement. Dr. Burroughs wants me to do some more etudes, so perhaps i'll work something up tonight..but it is 11:44 and I am rather tired as it is. What to do, what to do...

Off to Practice,

Deron

P.S.- Lord please give me some extra confidence this week. I need it.