drinking away aprehension

So today is an interesting day. I had a long day with theory, a lesson, and wind literature. Wind lit is really boring right now as we are just focusing on the historical aspects of wind ensembles and such. I swear I went to sleep 15 times, with the lights being dim and all I had no choice. We are just finishing up on Wagner and Tristan and Isolde in theory which is a relief. Too bad we have a test on Monday. What was good about my day was my lesson.

I warmed up at 9ish and was feeling really good about my playing. I went to class after that and came back to the horn at 12 and sounded like a fifth grader. I was immediately set aback because I just thought that I would sound better having warmed up earlier, but what I realized is that I needed to warmup all over again. I did so and it turned out to work in my favor as I had a great lesson.

I played a Rochut exercise that began in A major and changed to B major. I played a Concone exercise to work on my lyricism and then a hard Reynolds etude, all of which I had been working on all week. I felt really prepared, but Dr. B wants me to work up 10 or so etudes that I could play for my jury. She also thinks I should play the Gliere for my jury. I think so as well.

With that said, I am currently drinking wine, despising the fact that if I don't go and practice tonight, I will hate myself for the rest of the week. Or maybe I won't go, I have already played for at least 4 hours today. All signs are pointing to me not practicing. I'm so tired.

Off to Live,

Deron